- You are going to
marry me OK? - her eyes shine so bright, so her.
- Yes, my love, of
course.
That new dress that
now shines in her silhouette, those gloves of light, those jewels stolen from
the first floor in the afternoon, during the nap ... and the high heels to the
rhythm of a melody between us, ours that says "every minute at your side
is great" and I must follow her steps and I step on her and she like
nothing ever happened,
she corrects me "and there is nobody in the worldwide world". Mesmerized I look at her, my
arm on her back with her hand in mine, like curled up, like protected as we
round in a circle "that I love more than being with you," and another
before we get dizzy and fall.
- Why do we fall? -
peeping around the edge of the pool she asks, not to me, to the air.
- To get up love, fail
always, every time better.
Thereby while I raise
her up very high, more and more. Screams in fright, laughs, does not want to
come down. She is thrown out as she covers her nose, closes her eyes tight and
swash, the plunge deep to the bottom and then again and again, and once again.
Today you dive, today you kick, today you laugh hours for me, with me on the
edge of the abyss and in the distance the sea, higher the sun, closer it's
light that pecks here and there, dying the afternoon leaning there, one by your
side, you to mine. And questions, mountains of questions.
- Take me to a roller
coaster - starts quietly, ends very high, concludes, determines.
- Close your eyes
love, don't cheat.
It is a hot morning,
we wait in the queue and you ask for a cotton candy, the trip has been long, so
long until we get off the plane and there is the park that so much longed for.
We ran to get a spot, "me in front", you go in front yes, and I at
the back. "And Mom," and mom is filming love, down there, do you see
her? Don't open your eyes and you see her, "I see her", and the cart
slowly starts to move, slowly slowly goes up a little and you say that you are
not afraid and I am yes as always but you are brave and you demand it to go
faster, "Faster, faster!", And it goes faster love, climbs up up and
finishes climbing and there it goes now very fast it goes forward it runs flies
falls down down and we all shout hands
up open mouths we scream nonstop loops loops many loops the car flies off and
they all look at us as we fly to the bottom over a tree that softly receives
us, that slows us down ... that cheerfully leaves us. "Let’s go
again!"
- Don't go - and a
little finger goes up to wipe a tear that looms discreet, there.
- I'm not leaving
sweetie, tell me where I am.
“You are here”, she lowers her hand together with mine down to her
chest, makes a circle and her finger hangs from my serene gaze, I don't say a
word, I hold my breath between my trembling and pressing lips, “and here”, now raises the finger up to
her forehead, she rings twice, "oh
this hurt me", you laugh again now, with that song to my joy, in that
way that colors my grays, highlights my goods, erases my bads, forgets my
fears, relives my days.
- I want to live with
you.
- Me too my love, me
too.
But I can't and I know
it, you don't. I can't live with you, sleep with you. I can't stay awake due to
your fever. I can’t wish for a longer sleep when you get up at 6 am. I can't
miss a day off. I can't be late at work. I can't run to you when you have
nightmares. I can't serve you breakfast. I can't bathe you. I can't play with
you tired at night, complain because you do not obey, force you to eat, sit
down to do chores, play 24x3. I can't tell you how sorry I am, not to even tell
you everything I feel inside and it only comes out some nights when I can't
hold it together anymore and I break, I crack, I'm parted in 1500 pieces to be
reborn, to be well again. To realize that you are not sleep, fever, free days,
delays, nightmares, breakfasts, baths, fatigue, yes sir, tasks or endless
games. Quite the opposite my love. You are a sporadic tale before bed. You are Guardians of the Galaxy. You are Star Wars. You are The Lord of the Rings my love. You are the goal you kick, the pool
you swim, the musicians you learn at school and I don't. You are Having a good time, TNT, or You are my sunshine
while you sleep. You are The Dark Crystal,
My Neverending Story. You are what I
can sweetie, you are what I am.
- You're never going
to be alone Dad; I am going to be with you.
"I can't"
Juma
Paredes
July 2017
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